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My DAD

Well this is my dad!!! It's so hard to get him to smile in pictures but we finally got him to in this one. Only took us about 10 pictures. He's the best dad in the world and I"m the luckiest daughter. I can't wait to see him for my birthday!! Yeah.

Merry Christmas

week's almost over, christmas is almost here. i'm going to go through shellie withdrawl here in a little bit bc she is going to leave for what will seem like FOREVER!

I am happy that I have almost everyone's christmas present done. Yipee. Just to warn everyone, they are rather small, funds are tight but its the love and work that went into them that really matters. :) Merry Christmas everyone since I probably won't post until after the holiday.

sucks saying goodbye

I miss my dad.
He's already flying home as we speak and I'm miserably sad because I only had one weekend with him. Of course I might go down in February to see him for my birthday but it is so hard to say goodbye. It really sucks. And now I'm back at work and I feel like crying because I never get enough time with him and I know he won't move to Chicago and I won't move to Florida for at least another 2 years. :( I miss him.

living room

living room
Originally uploaded by JaLarge.

I just wanted to show everyone how bad ass our living room is! Check out all the sweet digs. I'd like to give a shout out to Craigslist for allowing me to put all the sweat and effort into finding all of our cool shit. Woo hoo.

Entertainment Center

Entertainment Center
Originally uploaded by JaLarge.

Living Room Chair

Living Room Chair
Originally uploaded by JaLarge.

UNBELIEVABLE!

Ok I am PISSED OFF!!!! Note the caps if you don't believe me. Lis, you did help me calm down a bit last night and I appreciate that but I still have that taste in mouth, that nasty, vile taste of anger and frustration.

This unrestrained anger that I have stems from an incident that happened last night while playing soccer. And actually, for the first time, it not only was not my fault but it wasn't warranted. And I'll amdit it when it is but I've turned over a new leaf and am trying to be a better sport and an overall better soccer player. However, to say that the other team was dirty is just an understatement. They were fucking filthy. And the ref, jesus, I don't even think I want to get started with him. Apparently we weren't playing indoor, co-ed soccer last night. Apparently we were playing a combination of full contact hockey and football. And hey, I'm all for that. Really, I am. Just send me a fucking memo before hand so I know what color shirt to wear.

Basically one of the assholes from the other team took me out as we were both going for the ball. In doing so he slid on the ground to do this thereby making himself fall which in turn dropped me right on top of him. This is where a call should have been made but it wasn’t and it doesn’t end here. I jump up and turn around to find the ball because come on, lets face it, you get tripped in soccer, there are dirty plays and a good 9 times out of 10 you’re gonna get taken out pretty unfairly but instead of whining about it you have to jump back up, pay no mind to the no-talent ass clown and keep playing. So I did just that. But as soon as I got to my feet and turned around to find the ball the MIDDLE AGED MAN who just took me out not 5 seconds ago, takes both of his hands, plants them on my back and shoves me head first into a wall. Now I’ve got skills, but even super man would have been caught off guard at this move so of course I go tumbling head first and barely miss, inches really, of catching my teeth on the wall. And what happens. Nothing! Absolutley nothing. As I sit here and type I am shaking because I am so infuriated with the complete disregard of league fucking rules. What I am paying to play for. If I wanted to play in the streets I would. If I wanted to play contact sport where no one regulates the game and all is fair I would. However, I choose to play in a league where we have refs that up until now I thought had to take certain classes and have at least a basic understanding of what is legal and what isn’t in the game of soccer. Apparently not.

As soon as it was physically possible for me to pick my body off the ground I jumped up, screamed for a sub and said I will not break my new years resolution and pound the dumbass in the head. My team walked off the field and erupted, yelling at the ref and at the other team who screamed obsenities at us and complaining that “this was bullshit”

So, I’ve contacted the league via email but honestly what can be done. I want redemption. I want that team or that individual suspended for conduct. I realize they won’t do that for a whole season but at least a game. I want that ref to have something go on his record so that if a claim is made against him again he will be taken out of that league. This is ridiculous, unsportsmanlike and it should not go unpunished. But, I pose this question to everyone, what more can I do. Please, if you know anything about the ins and outs of situations similar to this, let me know!

In the meantime I am working on getting a punching bag in my home so that I can work out my anger and frustration through physical exhaustion. Other than that I am at a loss and I hope karma will prevail again and bite not only that individual and that team in the ass but the ref as well.

thief

Someone fucking stole my yogurt. I'm mad, and not just slightly annoyed kind of mad, i'm frickin livid with steam blowing out of my ears mad. This is juvenile. No I didn't put my name on my yogurt. I didn't think I had to, considering that I left elementry school eons ago. What the fuck seriously. Does my yogurt look like your yogurt, is it the same kind, does it have the same color label and did you put it in the exact fuckin spot where I put mine, right in front, right next to my apple, which by the way I also don't have my name on. So go ahead asswipe. Eat my apple while you're at it too. I don't need to eat lunch. Eating lunch is for fat people like you. Jesus!

I want my fucking yogurt back. Karma is a bitch so you'll get yours. I hope someone steals your car.

let it snow! let it snow!

Just haven't felt like blogging in awhile. That and I really don't have anything exciting, interesting or mind-boggling to talk about. But I figured I'd give it a shot. Kudos to shellie for having a kick ass crit and getting her work out there and good luck tonight for her upcoming show at "CAD meets SAIC". I'll see ya after work.

Um, lemme see,...oh yeah it took me over 2 and 1/2 hours to drive home from work yesterday, usually a 45 min drive, due to the slight blizzard Chi-town recieved. Yum, let me tell you how much fun that wasn't. Due to that drive I missed the O.C. Not very happy. But don't worry....someone taped it for me. Yeah!!

As annoying as the weather was yesterday all I wanted to do was throw on my snow pants and run out and play. I was praying that it was so bad out that I wouldn't have to go to work and it could be a snow day. Awww...didn't happen.

Oh and to top it off, I wore my boots to work today. There like fake uggs. And a few people have already laughed at me and asked me where my sleigh was. Uhh...hey dumbasses....when the snow is up to my knees around my car and house I think I'm pretty intelligent to wear shoes that protect my legs and pants from caking with snow. Some people have no fashion sense I swear!!

here i am

i'm updating for lis
i'm having anxiety
i'm really frustrated
i feel like i wanna crawl out of my skin
my eyes have been hurting for the past couple of weeks and in the past couple of days they've felt like someone poured hot wax in them
my pants don't fit
i'm tired
i'm stressed
my room is in chaos and i still haven't unpacked from last weekend so I had to use another suitcase to pack for this weekend
for some reason my back has been hurting for the past two weeks too, i can't seem to get comfortable no matter where i sit
i'm drinking coffee
welcome to my hell