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I'm miserable. I'm so sad right now and the anxiety I feel about whats to come in the next minute, hour, or day is twisting my stomach up in knots. Getting out of bed is an effort and no one really wants to hear that. It's so much harder to try to be happy than to actually be happy. Never would have thought of that. I never knew that being this sad could be so engulfing. You feel like every little bit...just isn't enough. I miss being laidback. I miss being driven. I miss being happy.

CDW Christmas Party

CDW Christmas Party
Originally uploaded by JaLarge.

It's been awhile and I've been busy with lots of stuff but I thought I'd post a recent pic of Sang-woo and I from his company's christmas party this past weekend. I flew into chicago on Friday and Saturday was the party. It was sooo much fun!!

And....I moving back!
I miss him and I miss my life in chicago too much and I don't really have anything going for me down here. I love my family and I love spending time with them but this isn't for me. Now...I have to break that news to them on top of everything else that is going on. Gee can't wait. But just want to let everyone know that I miss them and I'm thinking about them.